The Past & The Present

Beginning

It’s hard to believe, but the end of my freshman year of college is finally here. The only thing left to do before I hop on a plane to Cancun, Mexico is to survive finals week. As the end gets closer and closer, I’ve started to reflect upon the past 8 months. I’ve realized that I’ve been through quite a lot of changes as I transitioned from a high school senior to a college freshman and that the lessons that I’ve learned are quite valuable…so why not make a blog post on my journey so far? So here it is, a blog post solely dedicated to my first year of college: a journey of changes, mistakes, and discoveries.

In the past, I had a group of really close friends from high school. I was really excited for all of us to attend the same college after graduation since it wasn’t as scary going to a big university campus with my friends by my side. But as weeks began to pass, our schedules shifted, and new friends were made, we stopped trying to contact each other. Our Wednesday lunches slowly halted, the snapstreaks stopped, and our friendship fizzled. This was really hard to go through as I continued to try to preserve our friendship by texting everyone and trying to organize plans. I didn’t want to lose them as they’ve been so precious to me, but I couldn’t bring everyone back together in the end. From this experience, I learned that sometimes, we have to let the ones we love most go in order for everyone to grow, even better and stronger than before. I hope that someday we will all be able to cross paths again. Until then, I hope they are all doing well and finding their own happiness.

In the present time, I’ve made a lot of new friends through participating in student organizations and attending classes. The people who I’ve met this year have been absolutely amazing. In college, I’ve met people from all different walks of life. People who come from different cultures, sexualities, communities, and origins. I am so glad that I’ve had the honor of befriending so many incredible individuals. If anything, college has taught me to be more open-minded and to not judge others because some of the most beautiful stories hide behind unlikely covers.

In the past, I thought that I had to be perfect at everything. I needed to wear the nicest clothes, drive a fancy car, befriend only “cool” people, have the best grades, and overall, fit the status quo of the “ideal girl”. I’ll have to admit that there were a lot of times I was superficial and cared way too much about what others thought of me. But I’ve learned that there is no such thing as perfect, as cliché as that may sound. There’s no single body type, clothing style, car, or major that everyone considers perfect. Having goals for yourself is good, but setting unrealistic goals for yourself in order to impress other people is one of the worst things you can do to yourself. The coolest people out there are the ones who don’t care what anyone else thinks of them.

In the present time, I’ve managed to focus on the things that truly matter to me. I’ve declared my major as Strategic Communications with an emphasis on public relations and started this blog. I’ve managed to get an internship this summer writing blog posts for College Fashionista and became a social media brand ambassador for Sand Cloud, a clothing company that donates 10% of each purchase towards preserving marine life (use my code, HamyH25 for 25% off your purchase!). I’m getting good grades in my classes, I’m wearing clothes that I like (no matter how crazy they are), and I’m completely unapologetic. I’ve learned that in college, you can be whoever you want to be, because you’re on the journey of discovering who you truly are.

In the past, I was very scared of leaving my comfort zone and only did things that I knew I would be successful at. I never showed anyone my drawings, poems, or stories in fear of being judged. I also never applied myself to any position that I didn’t know 100% if I was going to get it. But that’s not how life should work. I’ve learned that in order to truly live, you need to fail (many, many times), get back on your feet, and be willing to try again. You need to do things that make you uncomfortable in order to build the character and strength that it takes to be successful.

In the present time, I’ve started to take more risks. First of all, starting this blog was a huge risk because I’m continuously making myself vulnerable by sharing my writing with the world. But I’m so glad that I did because blogging is an amazing community to be a part of! I also went out on a limb and applied for a marketing chair position for a student organization, which I surprisingly won. Taking chances is still a new thing for me, but hopefully with time, I’ll be able to embrace feeling uncomfortable.

So yeah, the past 8 months have been a roller coaster ride, full of twists and turns. But it was really fun, and I’m excited to get back on the ride after a short summer vacation. I’ll be heading to many destinations this summer: Mexico, Seattle, Indianapolis, Chicago, and perhaps NYC if time permits! And if you’re wondering, yes, I’ll be writing blog posts about my travels and summer adventures. I can’t wait to see what the future holds now that I’ve reflected upon my past and the present. Thank you all for reading this post and hopefully, some of it will resonate with you as you embark on your own journeys.

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